Thursday, 9 July 2009

Micheal Jackson

On wednesday was Micheal Jackson's memorial in LA. When i first heard the news of his death over the radio, i thought it was just a hoax. You know, peole over there they like to come up with stories of celebrities being dead when they actually not. So, i thought it was one of those stories. Only when i saw it on the news did i believe that he's actually dead. A lot of his fans, die hard fans were and still are (as far as i can see) trying to accept the fact that he's dead. They cried, gathered to mourn his death by singing his songs and doing his dance moves. Me... no effect actually. Not that i wasn't a fan... I still am a fan of his songs, to me...yeah he's no longer with us, but his songs still are. But i do want to share some of my views on the King of Pop.

Firstly, i actually pity him. He was famous at the age of 5, that means he had had no life at the age of 5. He didn't have a normal childhood... he grew up to fast. I guess being in the entertainment business, he had no choice but to mature faster than his age. I guess that was why he built Neverland Ranch...to live out his childhood that he missed. I also pity him because he could not live a normal life. The media was always after him. He didn't have any privacy... whatever he did he was constantly being watched. I don't want a life like that.

Secondly, i wonder if he was actually grateful being born as an African-american (black) because he changed a lot over the years. He was no longer dark skinned. It was like he wanted to be white. It is my opinion that because of the massive 'overhaul' that he did on his body he got sick. So, looking at this situation, it makes me realize that we should always be grateful with what Allah has given us.

Lastly on the issue of whether or not he has become a Muslim. This is still not clear. To me, whatever he was...a Christian or a Muslim, it is between him & Allah. If he was a Muslim, Alhamdulillah...if not... but it is sad to know that they have yet to bury him. If he was indeed a Muslim...kesian jenazah.

Whatever it is, let us pray that Allah will always give us the strength to be on the right path and for us to be among the ummah who will be in heaven.

Friday, 22 May 2009

What's wrong?

What's wrong with the world today?Influenza A is the latest fear. It seems like we are being 'attacked' by many deseases lately, one after the other. I wonder why. The weather also is not really 'normal'. It's really, really, extremely hot in one minute, then it'll rain heavily in another. Something is definitely wrong. What's wrong? I believe i can come out with a few logical theories or explanations behind this phenomena (at least to my view point).

Religion is my first point. Lately i feel that people are 'playing' with religion. We can see that today it's difficult to actually differentiate between the malays and the non-malays; Muslims and the non-Muslims. Just look at the way people dress nowadays...need i say more? Some claim that they are Muslims but they do not act like Muslims... drinking, free sex, drugs, killing new born babies, murder,...the list the goes on. There are even those who do not fall under 'male' or 'female'. Why is that? I've never actually come across any forms whereby they actually state 'male', 'female', and 'others;please specify'. It has always been and should only be 'male' and 'female'. It is such a waste when one decide to change their sex just because they believe that they are confused and they are born that way. Islam and also in any other religion, i believe, do not state that GOD's purpose to create humans is to make some of them confused with their gender. There's always a solution to everything and do not blame GOD for everything that goes wrong in your life.

Politics is another point that i believe contributes to this phenomena. Politicians today do not really fight for the people. They are actually fighting among themselves over power. Just look at what happened in Perak recently. What an embarrassment to the country. It was like kids fighting over a big lollipop. They have forgotten one of the first things that parents will teach their children...the beauty of sharing. I teach my children that if you've won something, such as a big lollipop, it is rather impossible for you to finish all of it on your own because it's big. It will be better if you share. Everyone will get a taste of it. If you fight over the lollipop, it might just fall and break into pieces and you might just lose everything. Politicians have forgotten this. They have forgotten the meaning of sharing. Instead, they find it most appealing to fight over power by actually degrading others, humiliating the other party and not to mention by blowing tons of money.

Last but certainly not least on my list is war. It's frustrating and disappointing to see that a Muslim country is about to disappear because of war and the other strong and rich Muslim countries just sit and watch. They have all the means to actually help but they choose not to. Just plain selfish!

Finally (actually i do have more on my list), most people today forget to actually say thank you to ALLAH and they forget, or maybe choose to not to pray. They forget that say ALHAMDULILLAH, thank you ALLLAH, for everything good that happens in their life. It's funny to see people will always blame GOD for the wrong things that happen in their life, and when good things actually happen, they forget to thank GOD. Many Muslims today also forget the importance of praying. ALLAH only asks very little from us...pray 5 times a day, yet we're not able to perform it. We ask a lot from HIM everyday, yet, it's so difficult for us to spend about 10 minutes to pray to HIM.

wow...i've rambled quite long this time. I'll stop here and let you, my readers, to actually sit and ponder about this. Peace!

Thursday, 14 May 2009

People always come to me and ask why do i do what i do, i.e. teaching. My answer is very simple... i love to teach. i have always known that teaching is my 'thing' since primary school. i'm not the 'office material'. i can't picture myself sitting in an office 9-5 and do office 'thing' (whatever it may be). Why do i love to teach? Hm.... there are thousands of reasons for me to give, but most importantly is because i love sharing my knowledge with others. i love to share my experiences with others with the hope that they would get something from it. I love it when i go somewhere and i would always bump into some one who knows me and he / she turns out to be one of my students whom i used to teach. i love the feeling inside me when i know that i have touched someone else's life and contributed in some ways in their quest to achieve their dream.

Well... those are some of the many reasons on why i love to teach. One important lesson that i learn in my job is that when i teach my students, in some unique ways i also learn from them. so it is actually a reciprocal process. In short... why do i do it? I JUST LOVE IT, that's why :)

Tuesday, 3 February 2009

January '09

It's February 2009 already...how time flies. What have happened so far? A lot actually. Let me share with all of you.

Me & family:
1. Safwan enrolled in school this year...yup! Std 1. He's pretty excited about it :).

2. I've gone back to being a student:). Doing my PhD in Language. Now I have 4 roles in my life; a wife, a mother, a lecturer and a student...woo... that's a lot of role switching...tiring but worth it:).

3. I'm coordinating the Japanese & English Language course for English subject this year...rather interesting actually. This year, for the last batch, we have 190 students and 90 out that we'll be chosen to join the ever prestigious JAD.

4. A tragic and traumatic incident happened to me on Saturday,31st January 2009 at about 3pm. I was on my way to Sunway Pyramid from Shah Alam with my daughter, Amirah, and as i was navigating my Avanza up the curve to enter Subang, my car skidded and i lost control of the car. My car hit the left divider, then it was spinning as i tried to control it, and hit the right brick divider. Luckily the cars behind were not driving fast and managed not to hit my car. Alhamdulillah, Amirah is ok. Me... on the other hand, i'm still trying to get the courage to drive again and to get the accident out of my head. My husband and mom are giving me endless support and encouragement. My car is in bad condition, the front part. It is now in the workshop and would probably be there in about a month. Fortunately, Amirah is really fine...no trauma or whatever. I made sure that I didn't cry in front of her after the accident and at home I do not show her or tell her that I actually haven't gottn through it yet. I'm not hurt physically but my body is aching on the right sight...effect from the impact of hitting the divider. Alhamdulillah no broken bones or internal injuries. Doctor gave me a few days to rest at home.

Other parts of the world:
1. I feel very upset and angry with what's going on between Palestine & Israel. I'm more frustrated and disappointed that the Arab countries are not really doing anything about it. I hope Allah will turunkan bala to Israel.

2. I'm looking forward to seeing my students again (JAD 3, 1st batch). They are coming home for their semester break. It would be great to see them and listen to them 'merapu' again:).

3. I'm happy and proud the my students (batch 2) will be graduating soon. Yeah...:) You did it!

Ok. I guess that's it. For now that is...

Peace to the world!